I'm not sure what's wrong with me, I guess what is "wrong" is defined by our current social structure...Here is what's bothering me: In 2006 I've broken 4 girls hearts. All of the time I've had a girlfriend, we've been on and off for over a year and a half. At some points I would wake up and have sex with one of the 4 girls, then drive to see my girlfriend and have sex with her just hours apart (I'm clean, very careful with protection). I've never felt bad for one second. I would have relations with 2 different women in a single day frequently- I was like 2 different people...completely. 2 of the 4 girls I just straight stopped talking to and completely ignored them out of no where. Some girls can handle this, most completely freak out. I'm good looking, outgoing, very very good talker- I've never had a problem getting the girl that I want. My long term girlfriend lives an hour away- this is the main reason why I feel it isn't hard to do. I've never felt bad. It's like there is a switch turned off in my head. I can straight look someone in the eye and lie so sincerely that it scares me. This behavior only started in the past 2 years...before that (I am going to be 25 this upcoming year) I was a straight shooter- only had a few girlfriends. Only recently with my latest girl, who I straight up told I have a girlfriend and that she would be my mistress...well she is super clingy and loves me now, I tell her I see my girlfriend- she freaks out. Asks me why I don't feel bad, and I don't have an answer...So I just start ignoring her, making reasons why I don't want to be with her- I knew she was a psycho though, should have been smarter. I think I'm going after all these girls because I feel I missed out on a lot as a young kid- I never even bothered going after a girl till I got to college (18 years was basically my first kiss). Then there was the first girlfriend, that lasted 2 years- then another one that lasted 1.5 years and I started my most recent one...I don't know, I'm rambling. I know it is a horrible thing to do to her but nothing makes me feel that way inside. I just keep thinking about the millions of women out that and how it isn't a big deal. Ah...just had to get that off my chest...vicodin cough syrup that I got for this strep is making me all loopy.