I need some help with my life-dissatisfaction issue. I've suddenly become jealous of my husband's success and I can't figure out why. I had to quit work a couple of years ago because my husband wasn't doing anything at home and my mother got cancer and other things happened. Our house almost went into foreclosure because he wasn't paying the bills. So I stay home now and I cook and handle bills, and my husband's career has gone off like a rocket. He's a key team leader on a $2 B/$15 B engineering project that is helping anchor his multinational company in the bad economy. He's been put in for an executive bonus even though he's still manager level, and he's definitely executive track. Last week, my husband got off the phone with me and said some $250 million project he wrote a proposal on was won, but the customer demanded he had to be working on the project. He doesn't know how he's going to fit that in on top of his current workload. My husband met John McCain last year and showed him his work and they chatted about airplanes when the candidates were on campaign swings in the area. I've recently realized that I'm jealous of my husband and resent his success. I didn't want to be a housewife, and I never wanted to be a housewife, and I love work and challenges. He's a great husband. I can do anything I want and goof off all day, and he's still happy with me. I can spend all our money on me, if I want. He's better than a normal husband b/c we're best fishing buddies and best friends. I know I'm lucky. But all I can think about is how I can get out of this no-life executive wife deal I'm in and get back to work or go back to school and get my PhD or something. I feel as if I'm sitting here rotting into a nothing day after day, and meanwhile he's becoming some world class engineering leader. WTF is wrong with me? There's obviously something wrong with me. Go ahead, troll away. If I can figure out what fucked up thought process is making me be such an ass, that would help me greatly.