The past month or so has been really bad for me in general. Right now, Im living at home and goin to college, but I probably wont be goin back next semester. Ive wanted to do auto mechanics for a while, so Ill probably do somethin with that. I havent really been doing well in school mainly because of depression and other personal problems. I just cant seem to get any motivation to really do anything. My parents always go "he just doesnt care" but thats really not it...it kinda is but its not just cause Im bein lazy, I really dunno what it is. Ive always been genereally a quiet person, and have trouble explaining what exactly is going on. Relating to that, Im always on the computer. I usually talk on AIM or am on the internet. I find it alot easier to talk with people online about stuff. I wanna get a job, and applied to a few places around where I live. However, nobody has called me back, this was about 3 weeks ago. Theres a few more places I could apply but I really want/need a job right now. Im probably about to be kicked out, seriously. I have a couple friends/my girlfriend I could stay with if it ever came down to that, so I wouldnt exactly be homeless. I wanna get my own apartment and stuff, but I know next to nothing about getting a loan or getting an apartment lease. Right now I have a car but its in my parents name. Id probably have to actually get MY own car, which in a way, wouldnt be so bad. I could get what I wanted. If I got a job, maybe I could even get somethin cool, like a Camaro or older BMW or whatever. Ill probably end up with an old Honda but thats not really my main concern right now. My parents think I hate them, I really dont. I get angry and say stuff I really dont mean, then I cant really seem to fix it. The way things have been going the past couple weeks, I seriously think Im about to be kicked out. Still, Im kinda glad in a way, I get to actually start my own life, as crappy as it may be. What can I do? If I do end up out on my own, how do I start living on my own? Where do I even begin? Do you guys think theres any way I can fix all this? I have a feeling Im about to be in some major shit, that I may never be able to get out of...right now I just dont know.