I'm 17, a junior in highschool. I'm a very impulsive person and my lack of self-control does not help my cause. I began to fall into what you could call depression at the beginning of this school year. Over the summer, I spent over a month in Germany, and had the best time of my entire life. Everything worked out so well there, but when I came back, shit just started going downhill from there. Now, I can't seem to find interest in anything. Just thinking about going to school is painful for me. The relationships that I'm forced into with my teachers and peers kills me. I don't know why I've become so down about everything, but everyone describes me as an angry person. My negative attitude is destroying my parents, and I know that in itself should be enough motivation to change, but I don't even know what's going on with my own life. Nothing seems worth anything anymore, and I've lost interest in everything. On the weekdays, I just come home from school and sit on the computer. On the weekends, I go out with my friends and just get drunk and high. I know that isn't helping my cause, but it provides for an escape. My parents just want me to be interested in SOMETHING. I snowboard, and I work with an adaptive skiing program on the mountain, but I've been snowboarding less and less this year. I haven't been in a couple of weeks. It used to be my passion. I don't enjoy sports at all, except maybe volleyball. I'd play that if there was a school team, but guys volleyball isn't common in highschool. I used to play trumpet back in middle school, and I was in the jazz band. I dropped it when I started highschool though. My dad keeps talking to me about bringing it up again, but I just have no motivation to do so. It doesn't interest me. There's gotta be something I can do that's interesting and would make my parents think I'm actually doing something. I can't figure out why everything sucks, but it just does. This year has been a downward spiral, and I can't seem to pick myself back up, only knock myself down further. Fuck, I have so much school work to not do, so that's all I really have to say. OT, give me some ideas?