Help me get over this girl v.chemical addiction **txt convo post 13** So my gf and I broke up (again) tonight. Two days ago was our 9 month anniversary. Here are bullet points: - She was very, very hot. I mean like 10/10 hot. I'm not kidding (no pics, don't ask) - The sex was incredible. I've been in two relationships that were over 2 years each before this one, and the sex with this girl blows the other two out of the water. We both said it was the best sex we've ever had. - We had almost identical personalities and got along well most of the time. - When things were good between us, things were awesome. I was on cloud-9 constantly. - When things got bad, and we would fight, she was not there emotionally for me. More on this later. - We would makeup/breakup sometimes. - We both agreed that this was the most intense relationship we'd ever been in, and we were both crazy in love with each other. - She would give me mixed signals a lot, like telling me how absolutely in love she was with me, but then seeming bored and distant when we were together. So here's my problem. My ex had a very quick temper. I'm very calm and patient, especially with those I love, but she was quick to get pissed off. When we would argue, she was pretty hostile and didn't fight fairly, and was not there for me emotionally. I realize that these are absolute deal-breakers for a serious relationship, but bear with me... Sometimes I'd be laying in bed next to her, thinking "wow, this really isn't going to work." We went through a LOT of drama, and I was willing to make an honest attempt at working through things, and she said she was, too, but apparently she wasn't. I don't want to get into it. My problem is I am chemically addicted to this girl (before you tell me I'm crazy, there have been studies proving that the "lust" stage of love has a very similiar effect on the brain as addiction to/withdrawl from hard drugs). I can tell you that, on paper, our relationship probably would not have worked, but I was clinging to hope that it would based on the fact that I was absolutely attracted to her in every way. How the fvck do I get out of this mindset? I can rationalize with myself that obviously she didn't feel the same way I did, or she wouldn't have decided it wasn't going to work out between us tonight, but then I start thinking about how we were sitting there just a few days ago watching tv together on her couch, holding each other, and having her kiss me and tell me how much she loved me and really hoped things would work out. It's like a contradiction in my head (female logic?) I mean obviously her actions don't match her words, and logically that should be enough "proof" to me, but wtf? I'm almost expecting a call/txt tomorrow (knock on wood). Usually when we break up she changes her mind the next day. I'm telling you. She's moody. wtf? And then I guess there's also the feeling of "I'm never going to find someone else that I'm this sexually compatible with," which is a huge deal for me, because I'm not going to lie; sex is very important to me in a relationship. I know this is a common and bad mindset (the "I'll never find someone who compares" thinking), but I can't help it. She would insist that I still had a thing for one of my exes. I was like wtf? "If I really wanted her, I could be with her right now in a drama-free environment, but instead I'm busting my ass to try and work things out with you." So after we broke up, she txts me with "have fun being fvckbuddies with (ex's name)." WTF? I know she's insecure about this, but I spent hours talking about whatever she wanted to about this to try and make her feel better. I'm sure if she called me tomorrow and wanted to "work through things," I'd be a little bitch and agree to it, too. I guess for whatever reason I saw potential there, and in spite of all the BS and all the drama, I was willing to work for it. The fact that she wasn't should be indicative of incompatibility, right? Psychologists - How do I get her out of my mind? Seduction community guys - any insights on her behavior?