I have a girlfreind who i asked out like 2 weeks ago via text (is that bad?) anyway she agreed to be my girlfreind and we started going out she used to speak to me a lot on msn and occasinally text, we usually see movies together but we always have akward silneces in convos and never know what to say one time we walked all the way down to the cinema without saying a word!, i think thats because were both shy and cant really express our feelings to each other and i dont know what to do!. well anyway last time we properly saw each other was valetines day as i asked her out to cinema with a couple of mates with there gf's, i wanted to do somthing like reach out to hold her hand or put arm over her in cinema but i was too scared! i know..i shouldnt be but its hard..for me, well after cinema i walked her to her stop and there was just a big silence till her bus came i got the courage to put 1 hand on her shoulder and say see you tmorrow (which we had collage the next day) i could see a smile on her face as i did that and i thought things are moving! slowly but moving..the next day she didnt show up in collage and i msged her when i got home saying why wasnt you in she said she overslept then i msged that i miss her (a big step for me thats never normally a thing i say to anyone) and she msged back 'yer i missed you 2' i text back saying what happened in the day and we had a great convo seemed like it was all going well and i felt more confident to speak to her. i asked if she was coming in the next day and she said yea. Next day she wasnt in and i couldnt think straight i thought i must have done somthing wrong or there could be another reason..later on i was with one of her freinds from the course and overheard him saying he wanted to a see a film with her tmorrow (this freind is a guy and was like the first person to speak to her on the course, ppl asked if they were going out and she would always say no as she was not attracted to him and he is kind of weird but funny he has a gayish personality.' anyway i thought if i text her about not being in i would of sounded annoying but i wanted her to text me saying why she wasnt in..none of this happened so i texted her later on just saying 'hey, whats up?' i didnt get a reply..the next day she wasnt in again and i was thinking about her too much but also wondering why she didnt reply to my text i was thinking it must have been credit problems or somthing just to sort the mind so i could think stright i ended up texting her asking what she was doing tonight..no replys..half way though the day she comes in down the corridor and spots me as im walking to toliet and she smiles so i smile back she says 'hi' and i say 'your late' lol, bad move? anyway i walk ahead to the toilet and have a long think on why she didnt answer my text etc etc and what i was doing i was scared of talkin to her as i thought i would of been annoying when i went back into class i didnt say a word to her. When it was dinner time we walked down again i didnt speak to her i just spoke to other mates then she met the guy who was saying about the cinema that night and she was speaking to him and walked off ahead, i felt frustrated and i didnt know what to do, i wanted to say somthing to her but didnt want to bug her..annoy her or just sound like an idiot we all ended up playoing around some pool tables i was playing with my bessy mate from the class and she played doubles with some other guys with jane another girl from class gets along with eveyone, she then approches me and jack and mentions somthing about that game which i wasnt listenin to carefully i asked if she wanted a doubles she said yea, but then ended up walking back to collage with jane and that gayish guy, well probably coz she couldnt find a partner or coz we was late whatever she could of said somthing right?. Back in class i dont say anything at all to her...and 5 mins to end of lesson she askes me about reserch i dont knw what she ment and she handed me some reaserch notes... i thought i could speak to her then but again i didnt! i just said thanks with a puzzled look on my face..end of lesson now and shes standing there waiting i was thinking is she waiting for me? obv were going out shes my gf... and i was waiting on a mate just to get his work we walk out and that gaysih guy is there me and mate walk on and turn around to see they've gone back in the room so we wait...she comes out to ask if i was waiting for her i said yea..she said 'im going cinema with ryan' (the gayish guy), so i said ok...i felt gutted and like such an idiot...couldnt take it anymore i wanted to know if she liked me or not so i sent a text saying 'hey, if you dont like me you dont have to go out with me, just say so i wont mind i just want to know.' got a reply 'No dont be like that i think your great!, i just made plans with ryan coz i aint spent time with him in ages! we still on 4 2night? xxx'...first time i got kisses from her in a text as normally i think shes too shy..' i felt relived but not... relived that she didnt say she didnt like me but not relived coz 'she aint spent time with him in ages!' i text back saying 'its not that im glad your sticking to plans, it just seems like your dodging me' (which was a blatent lie i wasnt glad i was jealous as hell), she text back saying she wasnt doging me and that i was just paraniod and asked if the party i said was going on tonight was still happening, i said no party was on wensday but might be going out tonight ill be in city centre if you want to come text me, she said ok! but he sister has invited her out so she doesnt know what shes doing yet but if she goes with her im more the welcome to come. I thought then well she just screwed my plans but its all good its her family so nothing bad...least it isnt ryan but i didnt reply to the text and ive been out with mates but couldnt enjoy myself due to thinkin about her too much and im waiting for her to sent me a text! am i being stupid? or is there somthing that you guys thinks wrong! help me out guys...i dont know what to do its fucking me up bad..