However some of my body mods are actually benefitical for me, for it enables me to hear. First I guess I'll post my story. Cliffs on bottom for those with short attention span. I'm deaf by birth. My right ear is profoundly deaf while the other ear is severely deaf; meaning that my right ear could hear if the sound source is loud enough, such as truck passing by, foghorns, etc., but my left ear hears absolutely nothing. I've been living with hearing aids since I was 3 and I was without language skills till I was 5. I learned sign languages through my parents and teachers. I had little problems with my deafness during my childhood. I was hanging around with my deaf peers and made some friends with the hearing kids that had some basic knowledge in sign languages. That all changed when I moved away. I lived in a new town which doesn't have any deaf people for me to hang out with, I was going to an all-hearing elementary school in grade 6 which didn't really intimidiate me at first, the kids weren't as mean to me as they were in jr. high. When jr. high came, my self esteem plummeted and I withdrew myself from hanging with people, mostly because I couldn't meet new people because I couldn't speak any cohorent english, all I had was sign language which was no good there except for the interpreter. I lived in the shadows for 3 years. It wasn't till grade 9 that my parents put in the idea of cochlear implant in my head, I wasn't even sure if I wanted to do it, because the procedure was so scary. The procedure goes as; Do countless tests, like blood tests, balance tests, hearing tests, drug tests, etc. etc., then I'd get my MRI done (which will be the last MRI I will ever have because I'm not allowed to be near a high magnetized source because of my cochlear implant) and then I go in for surgery. They shaved off half of my head (they didn't bother to shave off the entire head, which made me look ridiculious) and start cutting a huge line on the right side of my head and fold it back to expose my skull and cut off pieces of the skull, where the implant will reside.. Then they'll drill a hole leading into my inner ear, where the hair-thin wire will go into. Then when that's done, they'll fold the skin back and then the body will fill it with assload of fluids to prevent infection and the likes. I nearly stopped the whole thing when I went into for the surgery because the asshat nurses made a mistake on the paperwork where it said I was going in for a surgery for brain tumor!!! After the surgery, the right side of the head swelled to the size of a watermelon, I'm not kidding, it was really big. I have a picture of it but I don't know where it is, I'm sure my mom has it around on her computer, I'll ask her to email it to me so I can post it. Anyway, beforehand I didn't understand why I needed the balance test, my balance was fine... But now I knew why. The fluid in the right side was heavy, so very heavy, imagine a 10lb weight ducttaped to your right side of the head, that's how heavy it was. I stayed home for 2 weeks to recover from the surgery. but my hearing wasn't activated until a month after the surgery, just to avoid complications with the fluids. Let me tell you, when they first turned on the implant, it was the most fucking weirdest sensation I've ever felt. My brain was literally vibrating whenever I 'heard' something, I felt sick and dizzy because the hearing section in my brain hasn't been activated since birth was now activated, but it was so overwhelming when I tried to make sense of the new sounds I made. I broke down and cried, it was mostly due to happiness, confusion, sadness, dizzy and everything. 3 years later, my old cochlear implant broke but I got a new one within a month. It broke because the shell inside the implant was pryed apart by some unknown force, they think it was the friction of my skull and muscles that broke it apart. But they assured me that the new one I've got (new generation of cochlear implants) will last longer than the older one. So from all 4 years ago up to now, I've been busy improving myself with speech and hearing skills. I like to think that I can speak fairly cohorent though, but I'm very confident with my hearing skills, I can immediately recognize bird calls, traffic noises, people talking, etc., though I still have to work on recognizing words. One big issue is my self consciousness, I speak with a really quiet voice and I barely talk with anyone other than my close friends and family... I have a very distrusting nature. but I am trying to change this though. Cliffs: Born deaf, raised with hearing aids till 4 years ago when I got a cochlear implant, very hesitant to go through with it. When I did, asshat nurses thought I was going in to remove a brain tumor ... after surgery, head swolled up to to resemble a watermelon, implant activated a month after surgery, experiencing hearing for the first time was unreal and overwhelming. During the 4 years of cochlear implant, i've been working on improving myself and now i have a few issues left to fix, ie. self consciousness and lack of people skills. Now time for pictures! This is what it looks like, I'm wearing a hat and growing my hair all wild-like to cover up the processor (hearing aid kinda thing). This is what it looks like when I take the hat off, I rarely do that, I only do that when I'm by myself or when someone relentlessly ask me to. Looks normal to ya? The surgerical scar is still there, but my hair does a good job of covering it up. Here's a penny picture of the processor. These pictures shows my scar, you can see it only because the scar destroyed the haircells. It doesn't look too bad, but whenever I cut my hair short like an inch or so, it shows the scar which I don't like. I tried my best to demostrate the internal map of the implant. the red line is the scar itself, the white circle is the implant with the computer inside and the blue line is the hair-thin wire which starts from the implant, goes through the hole in the skull to the inner ear, and finally it wraps itself inside the cochlea (hence the name cochlear implant). The orange lines are... Death laser vision. Here's my eyebrow piercing. I got it like 2 years ago. I really like it a lot, I don't even know that it's there anymore, but I feel like it's part of me now. It's 14 gauge, just in case if you're wondering. So all in all, I don't know why I made this thread... I guess I was just bored. If you got any questions, just ask me. It doesn't matter if it's really offending or not, I'm a pretty hard person to offend.