Hey guys The most drugs I have ever done in my life is I smoked weed ONE time my senior year in high school. Honestly, the only reason I did it was to prove to my friends that I could do it once and never do it again. However, a couple of situations in my life lately has lead me to taking pain pills a lot. Purklacets and Hydrocodone (sp?). The first reason is because of my favorite hobby. I was 7-0 as an amateur MMA fighter, and then I had knee surgery. It still hurts a lot. I trained for my next fight with the knee pain with no pills and ended up losing the fight. It went all 3 rounds and I only lost based on points. I simply couldn't train hard because of my knee pain and was very inactive during the fight. I was too scared to get tired. I've discovered that taking these pain pills allow me to train much harder. I'm only one or two fights from turning professional, so this is very important to me. The other situation is that I got laid off from work 3 months ago. I strongly believe that I have a chemical imbalance in my brain. I completely love life when I take Welbutrin (anti-depressant). However, being laid off means my insurance ran out and I no longer received Welbutrin for free. I'm a single Dad who lives alone in a house with my 2-year-old daughter --- I can't really afford a $100/month prescription. I find myself wanting these pills more and more, not only to help with my knee pain, but to just feel better all the time in the absence of my anti-depressants. I don't take strong dosages. One 5mg pill a day works pretty good for me. The knee pain isn't that big of an issue anymore. I mostly take them just because I like the way they make me feel. My anti-depressants make me feel just as good though. Should I just stop now? Like I said, I've never struggled with addictions of any kind, and I could easily stop taking this shit now. Am I being paranoid? Are there any generic versions of anti-depressants that I could take for much cheaper? Help!