It's the worst feeling in the world when you know that you're about to get hurt but, you still hold on to that one little strand of hope that maybe, just maybe everything will work out. it never does. I'm so numb to the situation now that I honestly don't know what I'm thinking. Letting my guard down to take a chance on something only for it to be crushed. The worst part is, You knew all along what you were doing and you kept it up. Stringing me along with little sentiments. I've never lied to you about anything and I feel like everything you've said is a string of lies to keep me close. Once you got me close, you shattered me. I'm so angry that it has come to this... I mean...what the fuck. It should have never gone this far, and I was willing to walk away from it early but, you asked me not to. I held on. Every night crying on the phone and you saying you're sorry and that you feel like shit? it's even worse that I feel like all of the "I'm sorry"s seem so fabricated. I know you're hurting but, I feel bad that I'm happy that you are I'm sorry.