I have been dealing with depression off and on for periods of a week or two to up to a couple of months for about 4 years. I've been more depressed than I ever have been before for about 2-3 weeks now, and my schoolwork, sleeping habits, and eating habits have all suffered as a result. I'm not interested in the hobbies and interests that I used to love. I've been doing a lot of self-examination (writing in a journal) and a lot of talking to friends with psychology backgrounds trying to deal with my problems. The issue is, I don't know how to deal with it. I feel helpless and I am tired of talking it out. I feel like I have nothing more to say. I have examined ad nauseum the root issues that keep making me depressed and I'm aware of the things that are causing my low self esteem and depression. I just don't know how to turn that around into making myself better. I've been too accustomed to just feeling like crap. I don't remember what it was like to not feel horrible when anything goes slightly bad in my life. Several people have suggested that I may want to see a psychiatrist because antidepressants may help me out a lot (people with personal experience with SSRIs helping them with depression). However there are a few people who do not believe I am "depressed enough" that I need to "resort to" that kind of treatment, and instead insist that I see a counselor instead (I have seen the counselor at my college twice and he is horrible - I refuse to go back, I have seen Intro Psych students more capable of counseling). I don't think that an antidepressant would hurt me, and it may help me a lot. The way I see it, if it doesn't work, the worst case is I'll be right back to where I am now. If it does work, I will be better equipped to deal with my problems in a reasonable mindset rather than letting them help me spiral further into depression. Thoughts?