Like the title suggests. My mother is very ill. But because i live in MN and they live in NJ i havent seen her for a few years. We never really got along but... I never thought my parents would die. I think the saying is " mother(or father) is god in the eyes of a child." Her mind is deteriorating and she doesnt remember anything anymore and its just so hard to watch. She's not eating and I feel bad for wishing her death, not because i dont get along with her but because I dont want to see her suffer anymore. Does it ever stop hurting?