I've dated a girl on and off (more on than off) for the last five years. Several months ago, we split up, and I found someone new. This new girl is wonderful, but I find myself having problems with her simply because she isn't girl #1. I think almost incessantly about girl #1, but there's too much history and too many problems right now for us to be back together. Perhaps in the future, things could smooth out, but it will take a lot of time. The hard part is that I find myself adding her name to my msn list in the middle of the night when I can't sleep, just to see if she's online... I look at her myspace profile and cry because she's posting pictures of herself that make me want her so badly. She was incredibly passionate in bed and I am disinterested in sex since her, as no one seems to truly compare. It doesn't help that I have depression and anxiety problems rather severely, certainly. I am consistent with my medications and do have anxiety meds to take if I start to go overboard due to my history of cutting, but I don't want to have to resort to these things all the time. I want to let her go for now mostly so I can be happy with the incredible person I'm with now. I'd love any suggestions people can offer, and just writing this has helped me a bit, to get it off my chest and into the open. Thanks in advance guys, it means a lot that you'd even read this far.