On Friday after work, I went home as usual. I watched some cartoons and some odd feelings started coming to me. I've had these feelings before by the way. I had to lay down so I went into my room and closed the door. I stayed in my room for about 15 hours. Then I got dressed and went to get Pizza Hut. I was only out of my room for about 45 minutes. I ate some pizza and went back to my room and stayed there for another 22-23 hours or so. I got a total of about 6 hours of actual sleep. The rest of the time I was just laying around doing weird things and thinking weird thoughts. My room has very little in it. I have a bed, some books, my clothes, a little clock radio, and some miscellaneous objects here and there. After being in seclusion in a little room for that amount of time, I started to feel my problems lift away. Thinking became easier and lots of things sort of cleared up for some time. Of coarse though, I did have moments of relapse. I would be having nothing buy happy thoughts for about 30 minutes, and then something in my thoughts would remind me of something else which reminded me of something that bothers/angers me and my thoughts would uncontrollably spiral into anger and hatred and I would become pissed off. My thoughts alone were powerful enough to give me adrenaline rushes. I've had this happen before, but I had about 2-3 moments like this in a 1 hour period. I realized many things about myself, including that I pretty much bounce in and out of different moods/emotions randomly. By the end of my seclusion session, I started to learn how to control this random mood hopping. Other than that, I decided on a few changes I'm going to make. First off, I decided to buy a punching bag to beat on to vent frustrations/stress/anger. I already bought the punching bag and used it and I feel a ton better. Second, I decided that I am never again going to allow ANYONE to cut me down because of my interests/goals. I will either attack those people or passively ignore it. Third, I mentioned earlier that I somewhat learned to control my random mood changes, so I decided that I am going to learn to control this completely as I believe this is a huge in factor is my dysfunction. The punching bag will help me out with controlling emotions/moods. I really can't sum up everything that I went through, and some of my decisons can't be put to words. I just wanted to share my little experience some you guys and let you know that it helped me out. I recommend trying it if you are a confused and angry individual.