Lately I've been sad and in a funk.I am not truely happy. I wake up and I really it's one more day horrible day that i have to go throught. a couple of months back after coming back from a trip, I felt that a small group of my friends holding me back. I didn't completely isolate that but i talked to them every some often. At the same time i realize that i wasn't a Christian just because my parent were and forced me to go to church.Deep down inside i didn't feel same way about religion that i did. As the summer progressed i decided go on a journey of self-discovery and improvement. (that is on hold because i am working this summer i don't have the time or the energy afterwork . I will take some time off before summers end. ) I am not truely happy with myself and what ever happiness i don't feel is shallow and temporary. I occasionally hang out with anyone my friends but i am busy working (only for the summer).and along with that some of my friends have gone for the summer or working. I felt unfulfilled and unhappy. I have try to keep a positive attitude even thought i am sadly. When i am at home and that temporary happiness goes alway i work out to make me feel better. this distracts me from the fact that sad. I wake up in the morning i have no motivation for life. my life is boring and unexciting. I feel unloved and alone. I rarely get calls or comments or IMs from anyone. more details will come later but until then can someone help me out.