If i'm not working on my truck, I spend all my time on the internet. I lurk in forums on about 3-4 of the same websites everyday. I go on ebay, some truck sites, craigslist, porn, esfbchannel.com, and offtopic.com Sometime I post my problems here in the asylum. Even after all the advice I have been given here, I still feel like I havn't made any progress at all. It's not that I feel like that, I really really haven't. I still am not going to school, never had a girlfriend, no people that I even consider friends. I just wake up, internet, work, internet, sleep. I base my life on the internet. I read forums written by strangers and I repeat thing I have read to people in real life. It is very very sad. I memorize all the different usernames and try to imagine what type of person they are in real life. thebestpageintheuniverse.com. I spend a lot of my time reading that crap, even though I know it's just jokes, but I can't help but take it to heart. I read those articles and base my life around that. I don't have my own opinions really, I just repeat things I have read and it seems like it's my opinion. Again, very very pathetic. So, I don't even know what to do. I am so tired of the internet and yet I can't get enough. I have no role models. I don't talk to my father and my older brother stopped calling me. And when I call him I can tell he is anxious to just get off the phone with me....asshole. I don't talk to either of my sisters or mother. I would really like to stop spending so much time on the internet. I decided that I am going to be dead serious about this. I will probably read a few replies to this post and end it. Thanks for all the advice. I know that the asylum can be very useful, but I spend way too much time on the internet in general. To show that I am serious about this, I will paypal $10 to anyone who catches me logging in to this website after tomorrow (saturday). My email is [email protected]. Just shoot me an email if I have logged in and no shit, the money is yours. I will NOT create a new username and hid like that. I am trying to help myself.