I don't know how many times I have to keep going through this. I can't change. It's been like this since I was sixteen. I'm twenty-fucking-three years old and turning 24 in March. I have zero dollars in savings and make more then i fucking need too. I'm moving this month and I can't even pay for the security deposit to get in. I have to borrow money. I can't stop it. I told myself I would stop going out to lunch for new years..whoops, It's Jan. 4th and I went out to lunch every fucking day so far. I can't stop. It's an addiction. It's like a drug. I'm sitting at my desk looking at food I have so i eat it instead of going out, and all my co-worker has to say is, "Lunch?" and I get this burning senssation. It's so fucking desireable i can't say no. I never have. When I am able to pull it off, not go out to lunch during the week, i completely fuck it up over the weekend. I take friends out to dinner and spend morei n one night then i did in three weeks in college! I cant' stop! So to push myself I am moving two miles from work. I'm going to leave my wallet at home. I'm going to cut all of my CC's in half. I'm going to walk to work. I'm going to force myself to suffer. I'm just scared for the weekend. I get that itch and there's nothing there to distract me. I could go shopping, i could go out, i could go buy food, clothes, watch a movie. But i can't stay home. I can't read a book. I can't sit still. I just need some advice. I don't know how long i'll last. I get paid on the 15th, and with that cash in my account, I won't even remember this thread.