I have a problem, and I'm not really sure how to describe it... Basically, I have a near pathological need to help other people with everything and anything I can before I pay any attention to my own needs. I also do the same when it comes to having work to do. I've been like this for a few years, and with the exception of one relationship, it's destroyed everything my life contained. I don't relate to my friends anymore, only to tasks that are given to me. When I had friends, I used to talk to them about all of their problems, and we'd work out how to solve them.. and it would work, and they would be happy, and at the end of it I would always be miserable. In the end it got to the point where I was still helping my friends even though I was nearly breaking down, and they refused to tell me anything that was troubling them - which in turn lead to a nervous breakdown, because without something to do, or someone to help, I can't function. In most things I've done, like being someone's friend, or helping with a community project, my stupid obsession with doing things has lead to getting stuck in the "relied upon" position that doesn't warrant any opportunity to breathe, which makes me stress out - and I don't know what's worse. Stressing out because I have what I wanted, or going mental because I have nothing to do. I can't seem to find balance. People and places treat me like trash, or a tissue. They blow all their unwanted problems onto me, because that's all I exist for, and then they throw me away. I want to fix this, but I just don't know how or where to start. I have all the motivation in the world, except when it has to do with something that focuses on me. That I managed to write this post is surprising.