i just left an abusive bf who i have a 19 month old child with. he has been hitting me for about 18 months now. he's never full out punched me untill the day i left and had him arrested. and even then it was in my stomach. he promised to never leave a mark and never has. he says he will never give me proof of his actions. he slaps me and grabs my armes and tosses me around and shoves me and picks fights over 5 dishes in the sink. one minute he is all happy and telling me how much he loves me and the next he is hitting me and calling me names to our daughter. he tells her that mommy doesnt love her and so the last time he hit me i called the police, pressed charges and got a restraining order mostly because he has repeatedly threatened that if i would ever leave him and take our daughter he would kill me and move with her out of the country. i love him still though but i resist the urge to drop everything and go back to him solely because when i was growing up i watched my mom get hit by various guys including the last one who tryed to kill her and put her in a coma for 8 days. i dont want paige to go through all that. i dont want her to think it's ok to live like that. it's hard to be the child of an abused parent so i left and am staying with some friends, and this is were my problem lies. they have a dog. i like dogs just fine. i've had a few dogs in my life but this dog is completely untrained and not used to children. she begs while your eating and tryes to steal food off your plate. her owners dont care. they feed her off thier forks, which is fucking gross, and this causes her to beg more she jumps up on paiges highchair and tries to steal her food. and even worse is the fact that she chases paige around trying to lick her constantly causeing paige to cry. and yesterday she bit her. not to hard but she bit down on her orm and pulled her about 4 feet. she wasnt hurt and the dog only left scratches but i am scared it will get worse. i dont know what to do. why the hell did i leave him to go to this??? i have only one place to go and that is back to our appt but i already have my stuff including furnature moved out and most of it is in storage. and i dont have a job yet so how would i pay the rent on the first? and i dont have anyone to watch paige so i can get a job. theres a wait list for courdinated child care which pays the day care for you and you have to have a job FIRST. he's not allowed back to the appartment and i have a restraining order so i'm not woried about going back there but i have no way to pay the rent so whats the point to move all my stuff back there only to move back out again. i have no problem getting a job, i even want a job. i would love to have one but even if i were to get a job today the chances of me being able to pay the rent and electric are slim to none. and i dont have anyone to help me move my stuff back there. i think i could do it on my own if someone would watch paige but i dont have a vehichle to use. anyone here live close to st. pete florida that would be willing to help. i dont like to ask people for money but at this point it would greatly be appreiciated. at least to help me through this month. any advice would be greatly appreiciated!! how can i get money enough to pay $600 for my rent and another $165 to pay the electric? if i could figure out how to pay the bills at the appartment is there anyone who would be willing to drive there vehichle between st pete and clearwater a couple trips? i can move everything myself i think, except for paiges dresser which my dad made from solid wood and is heavy as fuck.