I've only been in one relationship and it didn't end i guess in closure or in positivity. Thus my relationship ending this way i blame everyone around me for it to end but i also know its my doing aswell. I guess i miss ex but i know i cant or won't have her back playing games with me. But because of this i dont want to date any girls and i've lost so many emotions for people i thought were koo. I feel im alone and i have no problem in it. I really just want to be alone but my emotions make me sad to be. I guess what im saying is i feel hopless mentally of how to control my own life. Its like i've analyzed society so much that i dont want to deal with people that are greedy, assholes, minipulative. I wish i knew more people like me but i hate me as well. I dunno what to express in this topic but i cant explain my emotions as well. I just feel sad.