I know ton's of people, I've been going out a lot recently, I've even had girls offer themselves to me just because . People tell me I'm attractive, and I have confidence in both my appearance and abilities. I for some reason still feel like a ghost. I know all these people but not a single one of them knows me. I leave for basic training for the army soon, and I look through my contact list on my phone, friends list on AIM, and facebook and shit and I don't see a single person I can talk to once I leave. I am not saying they don't want to talk to me rather I don't know how to talk to them. I have alot of family but I can't even bring myself to tell them of the things I do on the weekends lol. I have kinda been able to deal with any issues on my own since I can remember, I don't know the last time I cried because I told myself it's a sign of weakness. I am sure I can be sentimental but I just don't know how. I am afraid people will walk all over me, or use what I reveal to them against me, and that I may possibly reveal information that makes me look bad to them. I've never had a long relationship with any females because of this, whenever anyone gets in an argument with me the first thing they attack is how I don't show any emotion and that I am like a robot. How can I deal with this? Saying to try and open up with someone I'm close to is a good start when I don't actually feel close with anyone I know. I have given up on relationships because I always make them fail. Everything usually goes smooth and then I back off suddenly. I know it's not right but I tell myself it's whats best and when I tell myself anything I do it regardless from sports to decisions like that. Any girls I interact with now are "fuck buddies" none I can call and say hi to in the middle of the night or get a call from asking about my day. It makes me laugh, because I have had people tell me how lucky I am and jealous they are because of this and that. I'm doing good in school, graduating early have a future, girls, looks and whatever. Yet I would kill to be in any of their shoes with the long time friends and people to surround myself with. I know why I do it and it is because I have always moved every 2 years ( for no apparent reasons) so I made it a point not to get too attached to anyone or anything. Even now I still have boxes of my stuff in my closet from a year ago. I just don't know how to change it. I can easily and simply deal with all of this but I know it would be better to fix it.