Long story short, a lot of shit happened back in January and February between us, she cut off contact, I eventually moved on and started talking to another girl for the past month. However, about three weeks ago, my ex came into work to bring in my house key she still had. When she brought it in, she started crying when she was talking to me because "it was difficult to see me." She ended up texting me last weekend while I was in San Diego to see how I was doing down there and everything, and we were texting each other on my drive back all Sunday night. This past Tuesday, we talked for well over two hours on the phone, and it was fun. We laughed, we joked, we talked like we used to. Same thing on Thursday, but we only talked for half an hour or so. This past Friday, we went out to grab dinner and talk about things that happened. We didn't talk about them though, we just hung out and again, laughed and joked around. However, the entire time I had the butterflies I got when we first started talking last year. Tonight, same thing when we talked briefly on the phone. Friday after dinner she gave me a huge hug and sent me a text shortly after saying she had a lot of fun, and sent me another one the next day saying she had fun. I never missed her the past 3 months. I was happy away, I was happy going out with my friends. I didn't think about her at all. Even now, I don't necessarily miss her or miss what we had. It's more I see her and talk to her and connect so easily, I like her and get those butterflies. As far as I'm concerned, the past is the past and what happened can't be changed. I fucked up a lot, and I learned from it and learned a lot in the process. I don't know what to do. I feel the exact same way I did last year when we first started talking. I didn't mind if we didn't talk, but I wanted to talk with her and I wanted to hang out with her and I liked her. I'm torn right now because I know it's my ex. EDIT: Just to clarify a few things. The other girl is basically out of the picture. I got sick of her insecurities and stopped responding to any texts or calls from her. She was never decisive about things, always went back and forth on what she wanted from me, and it annoyed me. I've taken it upon myself to meet a lot of girls these past few months, which I did, none of them I really clicked with. This isn't "I can't find anything, so I like my ex again" thing.