I'm depressed, what a surprise! Coming into an asylum thread you'd excpect depressing stories and help for an advice. Around the fall I met an awesome girl at class who'd I thought is amazing. I made a thread about it here and I got my head together and basically asked her out. We had sex and eventually went from there, you know? Hanging out with her friends and getting drunk. She's a fun person. After that some dude tried to threaten me because im hanging out with her a lot and I wasn't sure who he was since it was through AIM and her Screen name... I could tell the difference when someone's Screen name is being hi jacked...I told her this and she thought it was creepy too. However, next couple weeks she stopped talking to me and didn't answer my text and well... We did live far away from eachother. I had to drive an hour to her place. We met at a community College so it was a little different for me. After that I just gave up, and I basically lost hope in trying to look for other girls. I have no friends and I'm pretty much by myself with my dad. I quit my job afterwards and now I'm looking for a part time job. Then this girl I knew at high school text messaged me and told me she broke up with her Boyfriend. She always breaks up with this dude but I thought I had a shot because I really liked her and she was a really cool girl to hang out with. Her boyfriend is controlling and showers her with gifts and I felt something was wrong here. Her mom even loves him and text messsages eachother, which is . But I didn't care, my goal was to be with this girl I've known back in high school and to see if she can give me a shot. Long story short, she feels more comfortable with him and sees me as a friend, after hanging out a bit..yeah a bit.. and I felt like this dude that she was with is a jackass. Tell her what to do and shit. Until I noticed they've been going out for a year, I finally realized that it is difficult for her to lose these moments and to fall back with this guy, and I felt I lost in the long run. Like as if everything I do to value eachother's time (The girl from my college and my old high school friend) everything I do is just a waste. I even told her not to go with this dude because of the things he's done. But obviously there is something wrong with her. So..the girl I know from my college got a boyfriend. And the girl who broke up with this dude, got back together. I feel like a ship reck fellas. It's hard to think there's some girl I could meet at school or some group of people. I just feel so lost now. My motivation for anything has declined and my appetite is gone. Im getting worried because I dont think I'll be able to find a girlfriend. I'm 20 years old and I know I should be dating and having fun. It's just the fact that what I did for these girls and I feel back stabbed....no thats not the right way to say it. I just feel confused. I never felt this shitty in my life, I felt like I got kicked in the balls and cried.