I started to reflect a lot on what I've done and what I will do. I've thought about these things before, but not as strongly as I did today. I guess it's mostly due to the lot of bad decisions, horrible mistakes I made during the last year of life. I ask myself if I've changed for the better, if I'll repeat the same mistakes. I've been doing a good job thinking positively, but I guess today just made me think of all the bad things, and how I wish some things were different and how I wish I was the way I am now a year ago. It would have made the last year of my life so much easier and happier. I guess it's a good thing that the change happened rather than not happen at all. Really vague I know, but I just needed to get this off my chest.