I had a friend once. We became friends in high school and pretty much were joined at the hip. I had a rough time in my home life and his family took me in and made sure I was safe when I needed it. We graduated from high school and he moved about an hour away. From that point on I had to initiate all contact. We still did alot of thing together. When we turned 21 all he wanted to do was drink. I went along with it for a while then I pulled back. I could not stand not having him in my life so I started hanging out with him again. This behavior went on for 10 years. Finally I got sick of it when his first daughter was born and he continued to drink and party. I could not deal with it any longer. It has been 2 years since I have seen or talked to him. He was my only friend and now I consider him dead and I have no friends. I am at a point in my life where I am very lonely and am in great need of a friend. Someone to hang out with. Someone to have deep converstions with. I am married and have a good relationship with my wife, but I still need a friend. I just had to get that in writing and get some feedback.