I am stuck between a rock and a hard place so to speak. First of all I am not sure what I actually want, so work is stressing me out. There are a few tasks I have been avoiding primarily because one of them is boring and the other does not make sense to me. They are really symptoms of the struggle though. I don't really enjoy my job and the work I do, nor do I really think there is anything I want to do. So I get tired and stressed, while not achieving much (some days, others I actually get a lot done - but usually because the task is interesting and I understand it). This leads to me just wanting to relax at home (includes drinking) and not waiting to do anything that includes social stress. I find it extremely difficult to make myself do the work, doing a fe minuetes then wasting plenty. In addition at home I will avoid doing anything hard - eating take away and just leaving crap laying around. The whole thing depresses me.