Basically, last week I got a text message from an Ex who, 6 months previous, had blown me out. She apologised profusely and said I didn't deserve what she did to me. I accepted it, I was never bothered by what happened... It was very new relationship and I hadn't grown terribly attached to her. Anyway! Last night I was reading through my emails and I came across some to an old ex (more than a year ago) and it got me really thinking. I was really starting to fall for her (she was head over heels for me) but we were in a long distance relationship (different countries: Northern Ireland to England). We had met on holiday and had visited eachother at home... The times we were together were amazing. But, it came down to where I began to think (with some advice from friends) that it might be best to end it: Financially, at the time, flights were killing me, spending money for the weekends were killing me, she was a first year/freshman at uni (I know what my first year of uni was like!) and basically, a long distance relationship (different countries!!!) was very unlikely to last. So I cut it short by being an immature prick. I lessened my contact, avoided hers, lessened my enthusiasm and soon, I blew her out and "broke her heart", her words. Even before I had these thoughts of apologising, any time I thought of her and how I handled the situation, my heart sunk. Now I'm thinking of doing what my other ex did to me, apologising via a short and simple text/email. "Hey P here, I know you probably thought "fuck off" as soon as you saw who this was from, but all I wanted to say was that I'm sorry for how I treated you. It was a low thing for me to do, instead of being upfront and honest, I was immature and a coward." Something like that... I'm not looking to rekindle things or open up a can of worms, but I just have this overwhelming feeling that I need to apologise. Should I? Or is this a selfish, indirect asshole move to clear my conscious that will open up old wounds and cause more hurt than good?