For the most part, i've managed to keep most negative thoughts out of my head for about 2 weeks now. I've stopped all communication with my family. From my understanding of family life, you must communicate with family members or else things will only get worse. I don't know why, but cutting the communication has helped me a lot. I guess the lack of put downs and criticism from my parents has loosened me up a bit. Anyway, I quite my job because i hated it. I got a new job doing what I want to do. I finally went on a date and had a really fun time with the girl and i'll be seeing her again shortly. I ran a search and read my past threads. Jesus, wow. I don't know how I didn't commit suicide. Glad I didn't though cause things have taken a positive swing. I have to credit you people on OT. For putting up with my bullshit posts and me somehow not getting banned. Every time I asked for advice I got it and sometimes even criticized the people giving it to me. Sorry. If kids just had good parents, then they could get all the advice they ever needed plus more. Instead, I turned to OT and it has worked. Ha, complete strangers. Thanks again.