I could be a little bit more optimistic about life in general, and my mother has been calling me daily to ask if I've been listening to her Anthony Robins tapes every day, but my biggest issue is that I have no confidence at all, no matter what I do with myself. I thought I was too fat, so I went to the gym and lost 50 pounds. Years ago, I hated my laugh, so I started laughing more "normally" on purpose and eventually my natural laugh just changed. Ok, so brief story time: There's a girl at the salon I usually get my hair cuts at that always worked nails and whatnot. I always thought she was amazing and gorgeous, but all I ever need is a hair cut. Somehow I didn't think walking in and asking for a manicure would be the greatest way to grab her interest. Today I walked in and she was doing hair, which I'd never seen her do before. I sat down and she went to work. She was a lot friendlier than all the other hair cutters had been, and... I don't know if "flirtatious" would be as appropriate as "interested and probing." She kept asking strange questions for casual conversation, like my age and what I was doing later, then answering with things like "Oh, we're only a year apart!" and things like that. In all my stupidity, when she asked what I was doing afterwards, I correctly said I had nothing planned, and then stupidly didn't ask the same question back. "Maybe she's just going for a tip," I kept thinking, and kept saying that to myself in my head all the way to the register. She was way too gorgeous to actually be hitting on me, but I've also shaped up a lot physically since I was last "on the market." Now I'm just supremely depressed. If it went badly, I could have just found a new hair cutter, no big deal. I don't know why I didn't say something, and now I feel stupid and overall miserable over my odds of ever getting anywhere with women. I frequently get these oppertunities, where they open up and I shut down, and I don't know what to do about it.