... and I don't know why. I was hanging out with the few friends that I have. We got into a stupid little play fight. We were screwing around and having fun. Well, after a while he went in my room and locked me out of it. I heard my other friend in there telling him not to lock me out because I will break it down. He was right. My friend didn't listen. He keeps me locked out of the room. I pound on the door and he doesn't let me in. I pound and pound and pound, till it is on the of breaking. He finally opens it a bit, holding it still from inside and says "Quit being a bitch.". I got mad. Really mad. I screamed and yelled. All he says is "You just spit all over me" and looks at me with this gay eyes. I go crazy and actually spit on him. Right on his face. I have good aim. And then I can't bring myself to apologize. I just say fuck it and let them walk off. I have too much pride or something. I hate myself. I don't know why I get so mad. It is a problem I have. I get mad for no reason at all. I scream and yell at my friends and they just take the abuse all the time. IT's just that they know my anger problems. Why don't they take it easy around me and try not to piss me off? They don't. And when I get mad they just antagonize me more. It pisses me off even more. Just wanted to get that off my chest. Thanks for taking the time to read.