Genocide
Why does my W look like a peace sign?!
BACKSTORY: So I met this girl ( let's call her mary) in november of '09, she had only had sex with one guy and that was her ex boyfriend who she was in a relationship with on and off for 6 years (she was 19 when I met her). So we hit it off really good at first, she would tell me how lucky she was to have met me and all that, and she was actually the one who kissed me about two weeks after we started talking. On december 9 of '09 I went to Jordan for 2 weeks and I would email her every day, the day after I came back we had sex for the first time, and then again like two days after that, then right after we had sex she told me "I have a tendency to hurt guys, and I don't want to hurt you", I brushed it off like she was just trying to open up or something but I guess she was trying to tell me she didn't want to talk anymore. So first she told me that there were things she needs to do before she gets serious with anyone and that was her reason. Then about a week later we sent emails about it (she kept saying she was busy when I wanted to get coffee) and in the email she said she just wasn't feeling it anymore and that she felt dumb for having sex with me because she was crazy in love with her ex when she had sex with him and with me it wasn't even like that. I was crushed 'cause I REALLY like this girl, none the less, she gave off the vibe that she hated me and her best friend would tell my friend if I was at a place she wouldn't be there because she just didn't like me...I found out she got with her ex 3-4 months later and we didn't talk at all until about June or July of '11
CURRENT STORY: Her best friend is one of my friends and she always talked about mary when I'm around, ALWAYS. She would bring her up for the stupidest things, and I would see mary around the gym and we'd wave but that was it. In june or july she came up to me at the gym and apologized for what happened a year and a half ago, but we didn't really communicate too much after that. I'd be cold with her at the gym when I saw her. Her best friend started asking me to hang out with her and her boyfriend and smoke weed or whatever and every time we hung out she'd bring mary up again. So one day I invited mary, her friend, and her friends boyfriend over to my house to drink and just chill, everything was going good. That night mary mentioned she had never shot a handgun, so the next day I offered to take her to shoot one and she was down so we decided on that friday.
That tuesday I ran into her at the gym and gave her a little bit more attention that usual, and later that night we were texting and she asked me if I was down to hang out and maybe go to the gym and smoke or something the next day because she was off, I told her I was down for that. After that day, we hung out a lot, maybe 3 or 4 times a week. Her best friend would tell me to go to her house because her, her bf, and mary were gonna get in the hot ub and i should come too, they made plans to go to universal haunt with just the four of us, would talk about doing a bunch of other stuff. She would do things that made me think she was into me. She always played with her hair, touched me when she talked, we would finish up cardio at the gym and she'd wait for me on the stairs while i was changing and we'd walk out together and talk for 15 minutes by her car, the first time I saw her with eyeliner on I told her that I liked it and everyday after that she had it on, she's really good at tennis so we'd go and play tennis and all that, this lasted about 2 and a half weeks, up until last friday. I tried to kiss her and she totally denied it saying "we shouldn't go down that path again because I know myself and everytime I get serious with a guy it ends up bad" and the very next day her friend texted me asking me what I was doing that night and that she wanted to go out and drink or something (it never happened). My whole dilemma is, would a girl really hang out with a guy that much if she wasn't into him? I know she's been hurt a lot by her ex and all that but what do you think the problem is? I mean I always made her laugh when we were together so I know she's having fun, but I'm just confused because girls like this are rare and I want to find a way to make it work, sorry for the novel, I just need some advice
CURRENT STORY: Her best friend is one of my friends and she always talked about mary when I'm around, ALWAYS. She would bring her up for the stupidest things, and I would see mary around the gym and we'd wave but that was it. In june or july she came up to me at the gym and apologized for what happened a year and a half ago, but we didn't really communicate too much after that. I'd be cold with her at the gym when I saw her. Her best friend started asking me to hang out with her and her boyfriend and smoke weed or whatever and every time we hung out she'd bring mary up again. So one day I invited mary, her friend, and her friends boyfriend over to my house to drink and just chill, everything was going good. That night mary mentioned she had never shot a handgun, so the next day I offered to take her to shoot one and she was down so we decided on that friday.
That tuesday I ran into her at the gym and gave her a little bit more attention that usual, and later that night we were texting and she asked me if I was down to hang out and maybe go to the gym and smoke or something the next day because she was off, I told her I was down for that. After that day, we hung out a lot, maybe 3 or 4 times a week. Her best friend would tell me to go to her house because her, her bf, and mary were gonna get in the hot ub and i should come too, they made plans to go to universal haunt with just the four of us, would talk about doing a bunch of other stuff. She would do things that made me think she was into me. She always played with her hair, touched me when she talked, we would finish up cardio at the gym and she'd wait for me on the stairs while i was changing and we'd walk out together and talk for 15 minutes by her car, the first time I saw her with eyeliner on I told her that I liked it and everyday after that she had it on, she's really good at tennis so we'd go and play tennis and all that, this lasted about 2 and a half weeks, up until last friday. I tried to kiss her and she totally denied it saying "we shouldn't go down that path again because I know myself and everytime I get serious with a guy it ends up bad" and the very next day her friend texted me asking me what I was doing that night and that she wanted to go out and drink or something (it never happened). My whole dilemma is, would a girl really hang out with a guy that much if she wasn't into him? I know she's been hurt a lot by her ex and all that but what do you think the problem is? I mean I always made her laugh when we were together so I know she's having fun, but I'm just confused because girls like this are rare and I want to find a way to make it work, sorry for the novel, I just need some advice
