honestly....i really think i don't want to be in another relationship with a girl. fuck the stupid b.s. fuck the insecurities of both people, fuck how you do a lot of shit for her and she still makes you feel inadequate (sp?), fuck how she begs you to get a "special present" and when you do she doesn't even bother using it/wearing it. fuck stupid girls man. fuck the girl saying "oh he's just a friend" and then leaving you on your fucking 1 year anniversary for no clear reason, fuck the girl who decides that you're her option and she's become your priority. fuck listening to her fill your head with lies about wanting to marry you and have your kids and live together and especially fuck going to look at apartments to move in together with. fuck letting her know right before you fall asleep how much you appreciate her. fuck the stupidness of her actions and how you just know that you did nothing wrong but it all fell apart because you were too busy trying to be there for other friends. fuck the girl who leaves you even when she knows a good friend died earlier that week/night. fuck this stupid shit, i'm tired of it. i don't ever want to experience it again. i hate being let down like this and i especially despise this aftermath i'm caught in. i apologize to the mods in here for my language, please forgive me i'm emo, just needed to vent.