How do I trick myself into thinking women want to speak to me, or atleast look at me? Actually, shits getting really bad again. I'm about to lose my job and can't find anything in my field. The jobs I can find pay about $7000 less annually. I don't want to deal with this shit anymore. Is life really supposed to be like this...if it is, I don't want to live it out. I don't want to whine like a baby, but is it really supposed to be like this? Is the last good relationship I had from when I was 19, and the last good job from when I was 25? I don't want to be 40 and be worse off than I am now. Things were going really well, but no horribly awry. I feel out of shape, poor, shitty car, and boring. I'm 25, and getting old fast. I haven't had a relationship since I was 19. The last time I went out for girls was back in may, when I was out of town on business. So the last time I went out trolling for women was in february. Don't tell me to see a psychologist because I don't have insurance and am currently spending $150 per week on physical therapy. I'd love to go, just can't afford it.