SRS I'm feeling unmotivated.

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  1. ScrapXmetal

    ScrapXmetal Why so manly? OT Supporter

    Nov 9, 2007
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    Providence, RI.
    I'm 19, I feel like I should be at the highlight of my life, things should be at their best and right now even though I'm not in the worst of situations...I'm not really pushing the limits.
    I'm much more in this comfort zone. I spend a lot of my time in my house unless a friend calls and says they want to hang out or something, in my house I try to spend my time leisurely and not necessarily dealing with many responsibilities even though I do take care of them(eventually) they just aren't my main priority.

    I mean...I've yet to find an actual job. I've always worked for my parents and its been the kind of thing they give me this "allowance" sort of pay and it sucks because I'm unable to save up to buy anything worth while since its shitty pay and couldn't get me through a week if I tried. (Of course, I'm involved in my local hardcore scene and so that already explains where all my money goes...) I've recently been applying to any place I can find (with the exception of fast food restaurants, I know I shouldn't be picky) Otherwise, I think due to my shitty handwriting I don't think any company is willing to take anyone without any job experience.

    Currently I'm in school at CCRI (community college of RI) and I'm a philosophy major, I feel that thing is the best thing because I can become a college professor this way, I've always been interested in teaching and becoming a teacher. Even though I'm the worst with facts and paper speeches and stuff technically, I can easily go up infront of people and tell them how I feel. I also love being able to pass knowledge. Though, I've found an interest in being an officer of the law or just gonig through regular education studies and becoming a teacher that way.

    I'm not physically fit at all, I'm not really into sports, but I want to be more outgoing. Sadly living in this shitty state of RI, there's no where to f go that is worthwhile(again, I could be being picky.) I'm looking into buying a bike to ride around providence but its almost winter and it won't really be used until spring. I'm looking into yoga and maybe weight lifting because right now I'm actually underweight and I feel weak when it comes to anything physical, especially around all my friends.

    My love life is almost as bad, I've only had 4 girlfriends, my first was a ridiculous bitch, though she met my needs. I put my self in this hole I'm in because each girl I've been with, they always weird ed me out or they have something about them that sort of turns me off. Through experimenting with the previous girls I think I've figured out what I'm looking for in a girl but now I can't find anyone I'm really interested in (more than sexually) because I think I might be hung up on my first.

    I don't really know where I'm going, I don't really know what I'm doing either. I'm trying to motivate myself but I have a tough time getting up and doing something and I don't want this to be the kind of thing that, life will just pass me by as I sit around waiting for something to happen.

    Cliffs: I'm feeling like crap because I'm just unsure of what sort of position I am in my life right now. Is it me, am I just not making anything of myself? If you can and are willing to, please help.
  2. Darketernal

    Darketernal Watch: Aria The Origination =)

    Oct 8, 2002
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    Care,for all is like a bonsai tree
    Its pretty much clear you are living in an 'illusionary world' , the comfort zone of your house is giving you an 'incorrect idea' of how life really works.

    'life is a dream ,and now its morning for you'

    Basically what you have to do is 'wake up to reality'. So lets awake you from the dream you are in. There's no such thing as an 'age' that will give you the highlight of my life. To me they always said 16 ,16 ,16 is most amazing wonderfull godsend super time of your entire life, all the kids said it, parents, and even grandparents said, oh that's such a wonderfull time, and you know what. NOTHING HAPPEND!!!!! I was like, is this it? But why , why did nothing happen? For the simple reason they're all retarded when it comes to this. You see reality is that life is what you make of it. This counts for each moment of your life, this is why the highlight of your life could even be when your 70 , or in other words 'its your actions combined with your intelligence' that define what kind of life you lead.

    Reality is that life is pure survival which takes place on different levels. In school in order to survive you have to get good grades, in order to survive in your job you need to give good results.

    Its asif you are a sheep that always has to produce the most amount of wool as possible. Only if they keep an interest in you because you have something that they want you become important. You as a person do not count,only what you have for them makes you important. And that is reality.

    An important sentence for you is: Without effort nothing can be achieved.

    The best thing for you is to get out of the house and get a place of your own, even if that puts you in a less advantagous position it gives you a more 'realistic' view on life when you have to survive and mature in order to live on. You'll be working for yourself for your own life, and you'll stop being your parents little baby, and you'll have an oppertunity 'to get out of there'.

    I know i know, no one wants to get out of their comfort zone, but i tell you this much, once you start taking responsibility for your own life you'll never want to go back into the irrisponsible immature position that you are now without even realising it.

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