As the title of this thread may suggest, I feel in a weird place about my current relationship status. A few months ago I was here on OT talking about how I felt there was no future in the relationship I was in, and if all final goals of a relationship is to find your future wife, then it was pointless to be in the one I was in. Well, her and I broke up. And like all relationships you get pretty clear vision about the passed once its over. Anyway, I realized that Lindsey was actually someone I could see being wife material. She's come much closer than anyone else before her had anyway. Looking back, I realize that I simply wasnt ready to be looking for a wife. Im 22 by the way. That I just wasnt at that stage in my life yet. That yes, someday I want the typical life, a wife, kids, a house payment, all that, but I'm just not there yet. I think I was also curious if I could find someone better. Well, after going back into the dating field, I was met with nothing but women who disgusted me. Either they were whore, had no personality, had no sense of humor, or just out and out didnt get me, I was left with a general sense of disappointment in the dating pool. Granted, I may have only given it a few months, and Ms. Perfect may still be out there somewhere, I've all but given up on the current dating scene. I've gotten off point here a bit. Me and the Ex are back to talking....and sleeping with each other. And two thoughts are lingering in my head. One being that She has fit the best fit of 'the 'perfect' woman for me thus far. And two being that towards the end of our relationship last time, all I could think about was that I was settling with her, that there may be something better out there. Should I stop looking to the past for answers? Or should I realize that what I wanted was there all along?