I've been to AA, even went for treatment in outpatient in the past. I don't like doing either one, at all. A few months ago I finally did share at AA, it's just not for me. My last bout of drinking I have a lump and scratch on my head and have no idea how it got there. I didn't have any yesterday, and today. I'm doing ok so far, my nerves will be shot by the end of today. More than likely it would end up by my soothing it by imbibing. This bullshit has to stop. Drinking robs me of 2 days of my life, the day I do it and the next. Sometimes it has robbed me for most of a week and even month. It has robbed years from my life, honestly. I guess what I need is that anonymous support you guys can bring. I plan on telling you I made another day, and another, and another. FML.