I know I have a fairly decent body, but its not enough. I haven't been to a pool in 2.5 years because...I'm embarrassed. Its not just about sex though because I am not even comfortable around my sister and her BF because I look so shitty. Its worse with girls. I first started getting stage fright really bad, because I thought the women would not think I was attractive, so I obsessed over that and could not perform. Now, I don't even really consider interacting with women because I know it will lead with disaster. I've even though about getting a hooker, but I still know that even among all the nasty fat fucks they screw, I'd still be in the lower tier of physique ranking. I spend about 2 hours per day in the gym, 5 days per week. Every piece of food is calculated and timed. WTF can I do?