follow up to http://forums.offtopic.com/showthread.php?t=2827908 This sounds so dumb and pessimistic, but I can't help it. I've completely stopped seeing the point of living. I guess this makes me suicidal. I'm just not interested in it anymore. There are things I want to do, sure. But I have no one to do them with. I mean, I have friends and they would go, but it's only because they would personally benefit. I don't have anyone that I could ask to do anything with unless they thought it would be fun or beneficial to them. I don't have any of the friends that would say, "Yeah, it'll suck, but I'll go because it's you and I'll at least enjoy that much of it." I'm not a priority in anyone's life, ever. It's rare that people consider me or how I feel. There's never been anyone who would choose me over anyone else, and because of that, I see no point. I'm just the type of person who's always going to be like this and have this problem, since this has transcended years and years of my life, different states, social groups, etc etc. I'm the guy to be forgotten. I just wish that I could be the kind of person that anyone truly cares about. I'm sure my parents do, but they're also my parents so they are biologically attached to me. In my life, I've just never been able to form any kind of relationship where I matter to people. And I never will. I just don't know what to do anymore. I don't like my job, I'm not doing well in school, and I'm always going to be sad and alone. I don't have any goals, aspirations, and motivation to succeed in my life. I just want to stop living.