I guess I'm at that age (18) or something, but I'm just thinking A LOT about what I want to do with my life. I have a HUGE passion for music, I seriously want to pursue it, but I'm even confused by how I want to do that. No one really takes music seriously as a career, it's always like, "so where do you want to work" and I always just reply "no idea". The truth is I don't really want to work in a business/corporation type environment. I really do not. I just don't know how to get started on music.. Where to go. After this year of college I'm taking at least a year out, but I don't even know what I'm going to do then. I want to go to some eastern-European country and go to a folk festival or something.. to enspire me to get up off my ass and do something. I'm just so confused.. Am I willing to risk my future and seriously pursue music or am I just going to end up studying some course at university that I have a mild interest in and be as poorly motivated as I am at the minute? The only thing that keeps me going is music.. I'm so fed up with college and all this crap I have to learn just so I can pass some bullshit exams that will endulge about 10% of what I have actually learnt. It's so fucking depressing.. I just want it to end so I can do something I actuall enjoy. I've had 7 years of this shit for fucks sake. I can't wait until it's over, but on the other hand I'm dreading it because I don't know what I'm going to do when it just STOPS and I'm left with all this free time and nothing to do. Is it even possible to make a living doing something you love.. Am I willing to live a sub-standard life, commodity wise, to live a life that will hopefully be otherwise fulfilling? I just don't want to end up as another guy working 40 hours a week to make ends meet and not getting a second to himself because all he can think about is bills and whatever. I want to lead a life that I will actually ENJOY. I just keep thinking that I'm going to end up being what I don't want to be because I don't have the balls to just dive in and take a chance. Thanks for reading..