I am just so lonely all the time. Even when I'm with my friends. I can't get into anything, not even a game of Halo 2 with my roomie, I'll just stop playing in the middle of something. My first real gf and a few other failures since have left me feeling entirely emasculated (especially a rather embaressing event with the ex). I feel entirely useless as far as being a guy at this point, and pretty much as a person. I have shit grades and I'm stuck here for break as my family won't even pay for my ticket (which I can't afford) or drive the 3 hours to come get me. I feel so fucking useless I have no idea how this will ever change.