For various reasons, including but not limited to: pictures of dudes in bubble-baths playing with themselves, spanking it while watching a home-gym ad in a hotel room when he thought I was asleep, and...I can barely bring myself to say it...opinions about other guys' clothes. (He's also got more cute girls as friends than I ever did.) He's 16 now, ten years younger than I am. I keep reminding myself that it can take longer than that for sexual orientation to really solidify, especially if there's any doubt, and I did more than he has before I decided guys were not for me. Well, actually, it's more like I always knew guys were not for me, but play is play and when you're 14 and the girls can barely stand to be near you, what's a guy to do, right? (Funny thing is I grew up in Jerry Falwell's town, too.) That's why I'm still uncertain about which way he's heading; on the one hand, he goes to Catholic school and the girls are convinced that holding hands will get them pregnant (not really, but you get the idea), but on the other hand he's growing up in the age of free porn as far as the eye can see and he's still downloading pictures of naked guys. I'm also concerned that it might be some weird hormone-influenced need for male affection in the absence of my father, who lives hours away, and if there really is enough flexibility in his orientation for that to be an influence, I don't want it to continue in that direction. Obviously it's pretty clear I'd rather he didn't "turn out gay", assuming there is any flexibility at this point. I'm not angry about it -- people are who they are, and I don't believe in an elderly heterosexual male god, so I don't see a moral problem with it -- but I can't help but feel disappointed at the thought he might not end up with a wife and kids someday. My own life is not heading in that direction very fast, and I really didn't want to be the only one to continue propagating my family's good genetics. I'm not really sure where I'm going with this -- mostly venting, I suppose -- but I would be interested to get some professional opinions on whether I'm perceiving significance where there is none.