I need some serious advice from people who are very good in making sacrifices in life. People who arent materialistic like me, people who focus on priorities in life and not just about their toys and what they own. People who are able to think of loved ones before themselves. WHY IS IT SO DIFFICULT FOR ME TO DO?! It really depresses, really REALLY depresses me knowing Im a selfish individual and everyone in my family knows it (they know I have improved over the years from when I was younger, but I still have a lot of room for improvement and they know that). Im the baby of the family, and have always been spoiled when I was a kid (sisters still say I am, I have it easy in life). When I was little, I always had everything bought for me. If I wanted this, wanted that, parents would buy it for me. I basically never learned to say "no." For my family, its very easy for them to make sacrifices in life. They always know whats most important in life - and that sure aint the toys. They dont need a $2000 big screen TV, they dont need a 45,000K car, they dont need $600 hockey skates, they dont need $450 sunglasses, they dont need a $1200 watch. But for me, its a little more difficult for me to accept things in life and start making sacrifices. IF I do not start now at the age of 26, I will never be able to overcome this problem - as my long term goal is to become a much MUCH more giving person. Now, Im not saying that I havent started, I have...but I need to really pick it up and be more consistent with this. I am a giving and caring person, my family knows it...but them as well as I know that I can really improve in this area. Compared to everyone in my family, I make our family look so bad because of how selfish I can be, whereas they are the complete opposite. My parents are the most giving, unselfish people in the world. When they get a bonus at work, or have extra money for whatever - they dont go spending it on themselves, they dont go on a vacation and relax...that thought doesnt even cross their minds. Instead they always put their thoughts towards the kids. But when it comes to me, I always tend to think about what "I want", what "I want." And what "I WANT" is for this to stop!!! Here is the situation - one example. I bought a 45k Mercendez last Oct, and even though nobody in my family knows just how much I paid for it (or they would frankly kill me), they know its a Mercedez and its not exactly cheap. And most importantly, its not something I should be owning! Considering I have yet to work a career job, and its not like I make a ton of money. Anyways, the thought of selling the car has been crossing my mind for the past couple months. I would put up ads for it, (even though I didnt want to...see? Again the greediness and unwillingness to sacrifice toys in life), and finally couple days ago, this older man called me and said he wanted to take a look at it. He comes by, and after within a few hours he calls me back saying he will take it. He is scheduled to stop by tommorow morning to come pick up his car. Now, the first thing is that I will be losing some money by selling it. But thats not a big deal to me, because what Im trying to do is focus on the BIG PICTURE, and that is learn to make sacrifices in life for stuff I dont need...again stuff I DONT NEED, and in the long haul I will become a less selfish person. I really need to smarten up here and stop acting like a little kid. Even though I have found a buyer for the car and will be getting money back - why am I even feeling sad about having to let it go? Why? Nobody in their right mind, who isnt selfish would even second guess doing what Im doing. Thats right, because Im a selfish SOB! The most pathetic part about this car is how Im sad just thinking about letting it go. Well you know what? I dont want to, but I have to. And that is something I have to start doing, or else this endless cycle of buying overly expensive toys way out of my budget will continue. I just feel bad honestly, knowing my situation - im 26, have my own basement suite at home, dont pay rent (parents wont take $ from me), etc. And really I should be putting my money towards my parents, and yet here I am out spending it on a $45,000 car, or $700 hockey skates or $2000 tv? WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME? AM I MENTAL OR SOMETHING? I do give money to parents for groceries and stuff - because I do know everyday living is not cheap and its a struggle for most people to just have food on the table. WHY AM I TAKING THINGS FOR GRANTED IN LIFE?! WHY?!!!! Even though I am getting better (though not as fast as I would like), I really need to learn to full appreciate every single thing in life - every single little detail in life, every thing I have in life, my family, friends (wait i have no friends lol, but anyways), yada yada yada. I dont know how to go about this and how to improve becoming a less seflish person, and become more "think of others first" person. Its not something Im exactly proud admitting to. I own so much shit in my life, that frankly I dont even deserve most of it - since I just felt I havent earned the right and earned the effort to. And that would explain why Im selling my car. I want to show my parents, that I want to become less of a materialistic person and that I want to put more time into them and stop focusing on "what I want" in life and all about my toys. My sisters (who are all older than me), have given their speeches and lectures to me in the past. But they dont bother anymore, because they know its out of their hands as they have done everything they possibly could to teach me and its all up to ME to change. When they found out I spent $300 on sunglasses, one of my sisters really unloaded on me and said right to my face just how greedy and selfish I was. Always thinking about what I want, what I want, and not appreciating life for what I have. It was really bad, and its a day I wont ever forget. Please, please dont say Im being too hard on myself...because I know, my family knows that this is a serious issue with me and its something I have to overcome. Only I can do it. I need this to stop, I really do...Im desperate!