I'm in my fourth year of college but have another year left after this one. I'm struggling in all of my classes. I dread waking up every day to go to class. I don't want to be a desk jockey for the rest of my life but that seems to be the path of college graduates. My social life is very limited. In college you're suppose to meet a tons of people. I see college couples being affectionate to one another; It makes my stomach turn. I have this huge mean bastard shield I put up so I seem to scare everyone away. My aggression seems to do the same thing. I've been thinking about moving out West and find a job somewhere. I don't know how I would support myself. I'm tired of my current situation and want out now.