About seven months ago I met an Indian boy. I'm an asian girl. He's deeply rooted in his traditions. His whole family is in India. He's Hindu and if you don't already know they strongly believe in the caste system. He's Brahmin (of the highest caste... think of it as he's first class). He's no doubt going to have an arranged marriage. He loves his family and would do just about anything for them. They would never accept anything less than a Indian (preferribly Brahmin), Hindu, vegetarian girl for his wife. Me, on the other hand, I'm Christian. My parents are very traditional as well. My dad has made it pretty clear how heart broken he would be if I ever married outside of my race or religion. We're both bounded by limitations set by our culture, religion, and family. So going into this we both knew we were ultimately going to go no where. We both agreed in the beginning that this was our fate and something that neither of us could fight. So I set down two rules for us: 1) Whatever we were, or were to become it would end as soon as I finished school and moved back home (JUNE 2009) and 2)NO LOVE. I set the rules and he agreed. All my friends think we're stupid and crazy to agree to such a thing. But we believed we made each other happy and so what's the harm. Call it naive call it stupid. Whatever it is, I really don't regret it. No matter How much i hurt rite now.. and i do hurt very much, I would repeat everything I did in a heart beat. So here's the thing... April 7th would be seven months of knowing each other. However as of now, we haven't really been talking. I haven't talked to him in almost 5 days. No text no talk no nothing. Everything's changed a lot since valentines' day. I think I scared him off. this is what I wrote in the card: "If I can't love you the way I want then I will forever love you as my friend. 143 637" Our rule was NO LOVE. I sent him the card via mail... he never said anything about receiving it, when i was at his apartment I saw it. I thought since he didn't say anything about it maybe it got lost in the mail.. but it didn't. Since then, he's been pulling away. I think he thinks I'm getting too involved. That I'm falling for him; he's scared because he knows we're meant to say goodbye. I admit I am falling for him. But I know I can let him go when the time comes. We still have till JUNE to be with each other. Some will say I'm just post-poning my heartache. And I'm not going to argue. Why does it have to be so hard? I don't know what to do anymore. I miss him so much. But I don't know what's going on with him. All my friends say I should just let him go. But I still want him so much. Should I confront him with my feelings or should I just let it be? Idk. HELP.