I've questioned my sexuality in one way or another since I was a teen. I'm 24 now. I guess I've just been insecure about my masculinity as I've never really been into the typical guy stuff. I've always been shy and awkward around women and I still am. There are a lot of other little factors here and there but I guess that's enough to give a little background. I guess the question is...is it even possible to be gay if I'm still turned on by straight porn/still mainly view straight porn/would rather have a girlfriend? I do masturbate occassionally to gay porn and have off and on since I was a teen, but it's never something I'm *really* excited about or *really* get into...I don't know if it's a matter of me really not being into it as much or me just not allowing myself to be. I've mostly accepted that gay porn turns me on at times and I don't really have a problem expressing that. I just wonder if I can be gay but still fantasize mostly about women. I guess what I'm afraid of most is the guys in their 40s and 50s who come out after getting married. It boggles my mind...how can that be so? Cliffs: I'm a confused, insecure fuck and I'm wondering how I can be gay if I dig straight porn.