Last year, after I had graduated from high school I met a girl who was a year younger than me. We started hooking up, dating, whatever. This was the first girl I had really ever had a relationship with. Things were good until I moved away(20 mins) to the dorms. Then, a combonation of my fault(first relationship, i sucked at it), her fault, and circumstances neither of us could control(people were spreading rumors about things i never said, we were both in kinda the same circle of friends in high school, and younger girls were spreading the rumors) the relationship ended one day. She just called me one day and left a message on my phone telling me to never talk to her or see her again. That was the end of October. To this day, I still find myself thinking about her everyday. Like things i would say to her if i ever talked to her again. Sometimes I even dream about her. It was getting better until last week i saw her on campus and we just said hi and kept walking. So lately i have been thinking about her more and more. I've gotten involved in my own life during the time we weren't talking. I straightened out my grades, joined a fraternity that i really enjoy, met a TON of new friends. I've tried to keep myself busy, and i am happy with my life and what i am doing with it. Sometimes(often times, i guess) i just really miss her. I guess it would have been different had i seen her breaking up with me coming(i should have looking back on it), but it just happened without me knowing it. It just sucks knowing there is a 99% chance she'll never want to hang out again, because the 1% is what keeps me thinking about her. And knowing i don't really mean that much to her(we never had sex) really sucks. And now i'll be seeing more of her because she is joining a sorority. Also, it isn't as if i have not been trying to meet other girls. Sometimes i just feel like i'm lowering my standards with some girls(as much as i hate to say it this girl was out of my league in the looks department, but i loved her personality more than anything) so it's hard to commit. I suppose going out with other girls would help a lot, but i get enough satisfaction when i hang out with my friends and a bunch of girls on the weekends. I just read this again to myself, and it makes me sound like a whiny bitch, and i'm really not like that at all. I'm i guess what you say the leader of my friends and i'm well respected in my fraternity(one of the top 3 on campus, ASU). Is it normal for me to think like this or am i being a straight up bitch?