this past year has just been a slow and steady decline of my social life, and its a very bad slippery slope. it seems like everybody is immediately uncomfortable in my presence, and except for my core group of friends (4 or 5 people), all my converstations are awkward and short lived. It seems like everyone expects me to be THEIR best friend, calling them all the time, and hanging out all the time, but i just dont have the time or energy. Theres just too many people im around (work, classes, music scene, parties, neighbors, etc. etc.) and i feel like i cant keep up. And everyone takes it so personally when I dont have a 30 minute conversation with them while im in the middle of programming for work or doing homework, or just being at home relaxing. An example: I just got promoted a few months back at my job to a programmer, so all my work i do on my own in an office. My job before i would work with a team of 5 or 6 people. Now all those people assume that I think im better than them (which i dont at all) because i got promoted and dont have as much time at work to socialize. Then when shit like that happens i get a little depressed, and the next person i run into wonders why im not smiling and having a great day, and they assume whatever the fuck and now they're mad at me. i know i shouldn't care what other people think about me, but when i excercise that it just makes it worse. I need time to myself but i cant find it, and when i do everyone hates me for it.