I've honestly haven't measured up to much in the last 16 years. I've been slacking off in everything from high school to undergrad to EVEN graduate school, which i didn't finish anywhere nearly my full potential. I've taken everythign that my mom has given me, tennis lessons, swimming lessons, music lessons, etc. etc. etc., all the love and money that she put into me, and haven't given back even 1% percent of it. Everything that she's put into me, even when she couldn't afford it, or she had to work more to do it, all that, i've not lived up to even a small amount of what she expected from me. By 26, so many of my peers are successful in life, professional life, social life, and i'm unsuccessful in any of those categories. I just had a conversation with her, and she told me that she has pretty much given up on me and doesnt' expect much anymore. The worst part about it, she's almost blaming herself for this, wondering if she's done something wrong. She hasn't. She did more for me than any mother has done for her son (at least among my friends that I know of). And i've repaid her with nothign but rude behavior, a lackluster attitude towards life, and not pushing myself in anything. I could've done so much more by 26, and instead i've only done so much less. In closing, I feel that it's time for me to take a break from this forum. If anyone wants to drop me a pm or an email once in a while, i'll definitely check that and answer, but I doubt I'll be posting much for a while, except maybe to check this thread to see if anyone has some advice for me, because i'm at a loss somewhat as to how to turn this around. I need to concentrate on my life somewhat and figure out how to get somewhere, how to prove to myself that I can do it, to my family, and more so to my mom, who I know if suffering and isn't doing well becuase of what I'm doing, or rather what i'm NOT doing. Peace out guys. I'll be back later, when I get my life in order.