OK - backstory. I left school about 1.5 years ago because it just wasn't working out. I was in major debt, I suck at studying, procrastinator, yada yada, same old story. I got a job and worked hard to earn a permanent position, however, the job is a travel heavy deal. I make good money (55-70K/year), and am damn good at it (usually). The catch is I work away from home all the time. I was told it would be kinda like, leave home for a month, work, go back for a few days. Well, in July, I got assigned to a job about 1000K miles away from home. I came out here and discovered that I would not be working in an office - rather that it was a one man operation and I would be working from my hotel room. So for 4 months, I have been out here in isolation from my friends and family. I have gone home for 1 weekend because my apt lease was up - I had to move all my stuff out. Other than that, I have been stuck out here with no friends or people to talk to. The only human interaction I have had is with clients about 3 times a day, and on the telephone. It has been hard, but October was the toughest month (month 4). I have been getting major bouts of anxiety - the sound of my cell phone gives me the shakes. For the past few weeks it has been getting worse and worse - prohibitively so. Now I have posted the least productive month ever in a month. Without getting into specifics, it is putrid. I make no excuses - my job is my responsibility, and I have majorly dropped the ball. I am now facing probation or even release from my job. The thing is - I don't care. I am completely lonely, depressed, and care about nothing but getting home again. I would nearly welcome being fired. Can anyone suggest something to me that might help for a while? This isn;t like me - I normally take pride in my work and a job well done, and being fired is pretty much the most terrifying thought I have ever had, except for right now. This is wrong - and not a good thing. I just miss feeling like I have friends, that I'm not isolated and that I can breathe. Any suggestions or stories of a similar situation, I would appreciate it.