I'm just tired of it all. Tired of fighting, tired of making things better with family when I only get dissapointed, tired of making everyone else happy and go out of my way for them and never for me. I have one good friend which if it wasn't for her and one other person I dunno what I would do. I'd never think of suicide or anything like that. I dunno I help everyone and their problems and I"m the understanding one and the one to put it in perspective. I love my brother and I can tell that he's going through some major problems but I cant help him he wont let me. I want the friends I had a year ago but i messed up and lost them and I accept that. I dunno what I'm saying, I'm just tired.