Ok, this is nothing so serious at all. I just to write down my thoughts somewhere, nothing more, nothing less. After I left university, I decided to go to China, just to explore some options and maybe figure out something better to do with my life. The problem is that by being here, I have pretty much given up many opportunities in other places. Even if I left now, it would somewhat be too late to do the things I could have before. Also, I don't really want to leave as I will be getting married soon, but my future wife cannot leave for at least 2 more years. I'm trying to put the finishing touches on my website, because honestly, I'm counting on that to support myself and my future family. At times I feel very confident, but at other times, I realize that I don't really know what I am doing. If my website fails, I have no idea what I will do next. Basically I have to make it work. I am going to pump as much time, money and effort into it to make it successful as I can, but recently I have found myself questioning my confidence. Anyway, I'm not really expecting any replies to this, I simply wanted to write this down. Haha, it's funny, but I think that by writing this, I already feel much better. Ok, it's time to get back to work. Goodness, staying motivated is maybe the hardest thing for me. Any ideas about that? Ps: please don't ask me what the point of this post is, because even I'm not sure.